Friday, January 28, 2011


I can't believe - I, damn it, cant see the keyboard, too scared damn it fuck fuck fuck fuck

Wrong person, looking at the wrong person and they slammed into the window by the back door and I didn't have any weapons and I've locked all the doors and why the fuck did my parents have to leave the house

He was hitting the window for ten minutes but I checked and he's gone now and oh god I'm holding onto one of my knives and I know it won't do any good because my hand's shaking and oh fuck I am dead

How can you guys kill people I already threw up and I can't move and I didn't even do anything oh fucking god I'm so useless just a trapped rat in a corner and I wish dying was painless so I'd stop being so fucking afraid -


  1. Hey. Hey. You need to chill. I'll assume that you're being attacked by a proxy or something similar. M says they're not people anymore. I don't know if that'll help you. We'll all be here for you, but you need to do what you have to to survive.

  2. Stormy, first off, don't panic. I know it's hard, but it'll only make the situation worse.

    But, otherwise, Echo is right. You have to do what you can to protect yourself Stormy, and We're here for you.

  3. Both Echo and Sammie are right. I know you may not like the idea of killing, but as was said, proxies are not people anymore. I would prefer not to have death on my hands too, but in the end, the most important thing is to save yourself, by any means necessary.


  4. Call the police. They are breaking and entering. Call 911.

  5. Is 911 the emergency number in Canada?

  6. Yes, it is. I did call - he was gone by then and my brain took a long time to catch up but I calmed down and reported it.

    I didn't sleep for a really long time, but I told my parents, they freaked and... I feel so guilty. If I hadn't - if I hadn't gotten into this, then they wouldn't be so scared right now.

    Tired - think I'll go have some coffee so I can actually think.

  7. Good to know you're safe Storm. You had us worried. If you need anything don't hesitate to ask. :)