So my first Heroic BSoD is over...
Thanks, everyone. I shouldn't have just rolled over and despaired, but I was just so tired. I haven't been sleeping well - I'm always going to bed early and then waking up late. I can't seem to feel rested... like I was running around all night or something like that.
I guess it's just the fear and paranoia getting to me.
I don't have a Constant just yet, but... I want to protect my family. Especially my big brother and my father. He's always ready to comfort me when I'm scared, you know? Lately, I've just come up to him needing a hug, and he always gives me one. Corny, but... It helps. Hugs are good, comforting things when I'm freaking out.
I'll be willing to help, for their sakes.
I had a weird dream. Those are usual, but... I was walking around my house. Outside, I could see the world tree - but it was covered by black water. Which meant I was underwater too, but it didn't really matter. I could see it wilting, which was really weird... It looked like a weeping willow, actually.
...That's it, really. But I'm feeling better. Thanks, guys.